Changes

I had forgotten how much I really enjoy working out.  Chris and I made it back to the gym yesterday and it was wonderful, even though I am feeling it this morning. 

I got on the treadmill and my knee started to act up but I was still able to run sprints.  I am hoping to do more today.  I did weights and the bike too and had enough energy to get stuff done around the house!  Ah, how I have missed the increased energy I get when I work out. 

My goal is to work out at the gym in the morning before work but since I have to get Billy up and ready and to school by 7:30, I don't see that as very feasible.  Maybe I'll just aim to do video's in the morning and then go to the gym 3 or 4 nights a week to do a wider range of activities. 

How do you work out the time to do everything you want? 

I have very specific goals.  Chris and I are going to Hawaii in May to celebrate our 20th wedding anniversary and I want to look good in all our pictures. I know that sounds vein and I won't disagree.  I want to look good.  I want to turn my husbands head and have him brag on me...of course last time that happened, I got Billy.  LOL! I have boxes of smaller clothes just waiting patiently for me to be able to wear them.  I would love to get rid of the ones currently hanging in my closet and pull out all those boxes that are stored away. 

Well, that's what's currently on my mind.  Hope you enjoy reading and laughing with me at my silliness.

Have a great Monday.

Decisions

God has been so good to me.  He has provided great opportunities for me and I know that they are directed by His hand and not my own so I have to ask, why do I hold back?  What am I afraid of?  If God is leading me then He is going to be with me and if He's with me then that's where I want to be.  Right?  Makes sense enough. 

I think I must be going thru an irrational phase as I have suddenly developed claustrophobia as I found out yesterday trying to do a brain MRI.  This is the same type of irrational thinking to me as not being able to go into the tube. 

Please pray with me that I would get confirmation that this is the path He does indeed want me on so I can move forward.  I am super excited about it but terrified at the same time.

Thank you in advance for your prayers.

This moment

Today's ponderings are about living in the moment.  I have a really deeply ingrained habit of thinking about the next thing.  You know the way some people never seem completely there when you're with them?  That's how I feel and I know I miss so much.

There is so much peace in this moment.  The now.  At this particular moment I have work piled up under my arms but as I type this thought, I am so content and not in a hurry to rush off to the next thing, like cleaning up the piles on my desk.  They will be there in 5 minutes.  Who knows, by the time I get done with this post, the phone could ring 10 times or not at all.  Either way, I am here and I am happy.

I ponder how many great moments I may have missed or prevented someone else from experiencing all because I was in a colossal rush to get to the next thing.  It makes me a little sad.  How many times could I have slowed down to show someone how valuable they are to me by giving them my full attention?  How many smiles could I have shared with my children if I wouldn't have been in such a rush to get them here or there. 

Today I am going to slow down and not rush.  My priority is people and relationships.  Yes work needs to get done and it will.  Yes laundry needs folded and dishes need to be done and they will be done.  But none of this is going to be done at the cost of those I value. 

Am I the only one who struggles with this?  It seems that the vast majority of my friends are great at doing the balancing act.  The run the kids to all their lessons and activities and volunteer and help the kiddos with their homework and have dates with their husbands and always look great and are most always on time and arrive with a smile on their face.  Do they struggle with the rush?  Do they shortcut relationships along the way?

This moment I am going to just breath and say a prayer of thanks that I have this moment and that it is good.

Have a wonderful day!