Believing in myself

Have you ever gotten to that point in you life where you know you are capable of so much more than you've done or hoped for?  That feeling that you've been holding yourself back from better things?

That's the feeling I've been feeling.  I always start with great aspirations only to fizzle out soon after starting.  I make huge goals then quickly forget them and go back to my same old routines.  I've allowed myself to get stuck in this pattern with my life.

It's time to change things up and start living my dreams instead of just setting them on a shelf for me to follow someday.  Over the next few days I am going to be writing my goals list for next year, not resolutions but actual goals that have a timeline and are measurable and that stretch me to be who I know I am and to do more than I currently think I am capable of.  Some of the goals have been dreams for a long time.  Some of them are relatively new.  All of them are going to require discipline and self control and focus.

I am nervous and excited and can't wait to see how things turn out.

Hope you'll join me for the journey.

Goals for the last week of 2013

Personal:

Write 3 blog posts

Finish reading Say Goodbye to Survival Mode and write review and blog post about it.

Voice Practice for 2 1/2 hrs

Mail letters and packages, yes, I am later getting a couple Christmas gifts out but I have very understanding loved ones.  Whew!

Parenting:

Finish reading Spirit Animals to lil man.  Start reading Artimis Foul to him.

Have one on one time with the oldest lil.

Health:

Walk at least 2 miles 4 days.

Drink 80 oz water daily

Relational:

Write 3 letters (and mail them) to friends.

Call my Aunt to encourage and catch up.

Crafty:

Finish the scarf I'm working on and make another as well.

Merry Christmas to one and all.

As I sit here at 2:30 in the afternoon still in my pj's, I reflect on what Christmas really means to me.

Christmas is...the reason for my hope and joy.  It astounds me that Jesus stepped out of Heaven to come to this world to endure all He did for me and all of humanity.

My life doesn't look like I want it to but I have a peace that God will bring me to the place HE wants me to be and that gives me a great joy.  I know as long as I stay focused on Jesus and not get distracted by all the stuff that comes at me, I will be okay in the end.  There's been a lot to get me discouraged and knock me off course but being anchored in Jesus, the perfecter of my faith, I am able to stay the course and keep smiling when circumstantially I should be crying.

Thank you God for sending Jesus to be my salvation and my director.  Help me to remember to come to you when life gets complicated and I start to panic because my problems seem larger than my hope.  You are bigger than anything I can come up against.